Taking flight. A time to soar? I think so. I am getting excited to move forward and do my art and writing. It will be fun to decorate a new space. I did not expect this new journey. Who does after the death of a spouse dies. I had no idea what Tom’s death would mean for me. I decided to approach it as I do other things I don’t know much about it. To feel my way forward with it and make my own conclusions. I would examine what others feel, but not take on the beliefs of others. I felt the basis for me would be my relationship with Thomas. How we were with one another left me with great comfort. I feel so well loved. And I came to feel losing the one you love does deeply hurt. It should! I miss Thomas but then he is always with me. I know what he thought/would be thinking! He always wanted my happiness as I did him. He would want me to take flight or find another path to follow. He loved adventure!
I just want to do another life with him! So I told him to arrange it! But to wait until I was available, I plan to embrace this life again. Learn more life lessons.
I think we all process loss in different ways. I did not want to get caught up in the triggers of sadness and loss. It would be very hard to move forward and have happiness, and love. I have Grandchildren to love and watch them growing up, be a part of their lives as an influence. I have to finish things I have started such as my art project (Shibui Found Image Art). A manual about it needs to be written. The point is that if we are to live life well, it’s more to be experienced. Self-talk and perceptions generate a whole variety of thoughts. The mind predicts what we want, so replace old thoughts with new ones and it will call these up instead of what makes you feel sad, alone, etc. Take action and do things! Reach out, and be different! This is what I recommend!
Best wishes! Pejj Nunes