Feeling Good! It’s wonderful to feel good about what is happening in your life!
I love being at this point in life after Tom’s death in September 2020. I am very glad to be who I am, that my decision to mourn Thomas and think about what I wanted life to be like that first year.
I found one-liners for my self-talk this kept my thoughts simpler, and not running off into so many other possibilities. It prevented me from locking into the word game in my head where you are led into too many ideas. One such one-liner is “I will, am changing life up so it is different.” Or “I am taking a new path”. “I have been so well loved! I can do this! Tom is in my head and heart!” “I can be happy for no reason! It begins with a smile! (Just smile and feel what your body feels like!) It changes your mind and body to smile!
I wondered what it would be like to be done with our home and to sell it. I felt there could be sadness….how deep it might feel to me was concerning. So did not overthink it, but stayed in the present when this thought came up, it did not really. I think it had to do with how loved I felt by Thomas. What I did feel was excited because I had done it! I cleared and cleaned the house with a lot of great help! Found a wonderful realtor Jen Whitehead who worked with me.
I am not done as have some more packing in the rental home but the closing for our new home is May 17th. This packing will be easier.
I live in Southern Maine. I am the owner of Anisette Studios. My website is https://www.anisettestudios.com/ Here you can view and purchase Shibui, sign up for my newsletters, blog, and read articles about Shibui Found Image Art. Patrons get great deals several times a year and special items at times. My site makes it easy to contact me. My primary art form is Shibui Found Image Art. Shibui begins with action art and stems from the imagination. It is like seeing something in the clouds or solving a puzzle. Its creative process has its own rules and requires what I call reverse engineering due to a lack of an understructure and purely out of the imagination. In addition to those who patron me, my target groups are those who use art therapy. I will soon be teaching live. Contact me if you would like to learn live. I use Zoom. I request that although my art, other images, and what I write is now published by me here on WordPress; I do ask you do not to use my artwork, poetry, or the information about Shibui Found Image Art without my permission. I am quite available to make such requests. I wish to share the following: The existentialist philosopher Simone de Beauvoir wrote a book called The Ethics of Ambiguity. In it, she lays out a guiding ethic in response to the philosophy of existentialism. It might be somewhat familiar to you already. She writes, “To will oneself free is also to will others free. This will is not an abstract formula. It points out to each person concrete action to be achieved.”
Best wishes to all! Have good times and keep safe! Pejj