Why blog?
Why Blog? Because it is a way to convey ideas. It is a way to have a conversation if others respond. It is a way to facilitate those ideas and explore them.
I feel what bloggers have to say and how makes life interesting.
It means I am not alone in how I think and feel! At this time of life, I want to find out what others think and share what I think of this new territory.
I love writing and research. I love my art form. I want to be a part of change and help others. No one is totally alone. We just need to reach out. Staying confined is not a happy life.
I am interested in what others do about suddenly being alone without their partner.
Exploring what people do after their partner dies is interesting to me because I want life to feel good again and I have things in the works that I want to continue with. What I had knowledge of is that it is supposed to be awful. Well, it is to some extent. Your are suddenly alone.
Some of it is if the marriage was a good one or a bad one. Mine was a very good one. So I asked myself what can I take away from my experience with Thomas. I know what it’s like to be very loved. I know what it was to be trusted in and respected for who I am. I grew because of my relationship with Thomas. I took care of our financial needs, and still can mine. Confidence and knowing how to have security are in my ballpark! I know how to research and ask questions. I am learning how to reach out and be a part of other things. It is indeed how we look at things that allows us happiness without the one we love. There is a place in my head and heart for Thomas and a place for the sadness. I will always have an emotional trigger because to be so loved should hurt! I am grateful for my life with Thomas.
What’s next? I don’t know, nor should we want to I feel. I am all for surprises. I know I can handle whatever it is! How? Why? Because I am older and wiser at this point. I have continued to learn my way forward. What was important has changed and will continue to change. Life does move forward.
The more happiness I bring into my life through what I experience, and chose what I want….the more my brain seeks these things out! The triggers are finding happiness over what used to be. I am replacing old with new! Believing what is so is up to you. Belief is where what gets triggered starts. I want to live a mindful life and not let my mind lead me around. Giving thought just a glance and thinking nope! Doing something and thinking something else will get you there!
Best wishes! Pejj
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