I am sorry for disappearing! I can only offer that this move has been complex. Moving to Rhode Island and not getting back has been the problem. I have been here in Maine and finally, made significant in-roads to clear and clean the house, and prepare it for sale in the spring. It helps to remember that I do not have to be a superwoman! Thomas died a little more than 2 years ago. My daughter and I have been working together to make things happen here and in Rhode Island where we rent a house. Later we will buy or build.
The process of moving, and learning out the things Thomas owned, loved, and then there is his artwork___there is a lot of it!
It has been emotional but only a bit, not terribly so. I remain pretty balanced. I want to change life up, live differently, and not just lug the past around. You can’t have both if you want sanity. If you want to move forward. This means giving things to people earlier and returning things to Tom’s family (his brother and his kids) that were his. Keep things but not everything. There are things to simply change up. I would like to buy some different things. When you marry you compromise when you buy things for the house.
Being single? That is something I have never done because I married right out of high school. being single I can focus on how I want to be, and what I want to do to move me toward my goals with my art especially! And write the manual. Have a plan. Get settled so I can live in new ways. I heard or read something interesting. The idea was as we get older time flies! So it seems! But it turns out this is because what we do becomes so familiar to us, so____do something new, different, and time will feel fuller and like there is more of it! I want to test that idea!
Taking new paths means an adventure. Looking at things in new ways is a great idea! Not buying into self-talk that leads you nowhere! That voice in our heads is not who we are or have to be. It is just a voice! It is our minds predicting, and playing the word game that can lead us into the land of pros and cons, and relying on that. In doing so your not feeling the world around you! You’re not getting to the heart of living well. You’re just responding to what becomes overthinking. At least this is what it feels like! I want to be different.