Since Thomas’s death, I have been thinking of how I want the rest of my life to be. I began to change things____and bring into my life the things that interested me. The kind of things you can move away from_____this is what I want to build in. For example, I want to be in, get out into nature. That will be healing for my soul. To feel roots again that connects me to the earth. This was a sense I had as a child, and with spending so much time inside, it is lost to me. I spent too much time inside my home. I can work outside, and that will influence me, it will touch me. The earth itself is hope, gives hope and oneness. We are meant to love the earth. I seem to have forgotten that.
We need to have hope. It is there! Despite what is happening in the world. It is how we look at things. We have a history as human beings to do things the hard way, and then when enough is enough we make changes. If we never really take a good look at why things are as they are we just keep rolling along with others, and in doing so we become so involved with what everyone else is doing____we lose the site of hope, and what it is to have it. We lose the sense of compassion and love. We become so busy with everything but what we ourselves need. We must take care of ourselves, so then we can be there for others.
My goal this year is to continue working on myself, to be more aligned with who I really am, and not to bring into myself; the influences of people and the world around me. I will turn to meditation and chakras as well.