My dearest, I miss you! I love you! It’s sad to know there will not be any more cards filled with all the reasons you love me! It’s sad to not feel your trembling touch along my skin. The warm soft kisses. The sense of “mine” we shared.
I can write about you, and even to you! Knowing how you would choose a card for me, and knowing the lovely, beautiful, heartfelt things in which you would write in it____gives warmth, because of my certainty. I have so many collected.
Life is not the same without you. Other certainties are that we felt our love rare, unique. special___one of a kind! We felt so lucky to be so entwined. So a part of one another. Gods? Or cupid? We were given something special.
You gave me more than love! You gave me a life where I could grow, and become all that I am. And you relished in watching me grow and become. Anything I wanted or you thought I needed, it was mine! If I had wanted the moon you would have found a way to give it. And because you were like that___I loved you more deeply, with all of my head and heart. My goal was to do all in my power back. I miss doing for you. I miss the electricity that flowed between us. I miss being so entangled that we were as one. So knowing of who you were, and how you felt as you were me.
Where are you now? How can you return to me? When and in what form? And when will you be done with your exploration there? Where ever there is? Your ADHA self is seeing all it can I am sure! They say we remain who we are after we leave this world. We just shuffle off the body. Any way___My love, there is always a place in my heart for you. No matter what I do in the future. It is time for another adventure. I know you will always be ok with whatever I do. Whatever I invest in___for that is how you are.
Much love, Your Pamela