
Today I climbed out of bed, managed the hair, and made myself breakfast. The kind of breakfast I had not made in some time! One with some bacon and eggs, toast and raspberry jelly, and black coffee. Then I watched a lovely movie, rather than write, right away.
Feeling great! Feeling great has nothing to do with the state of anything else other than the self! The rest? It is secondary or the periphery! LOL! I am the event! And I am ok with this! We all are events within a field of other things.
I caught hold of a feeling today and I want to savor it, and have my brain bring it up daily! It is a sense of feeling truly present. Nothing else leaked in the feeling, because those things have become “just thoughts”, that is all they are____. I realized that I simply needed to believe that fact. “This is how this works!” I thought.
I love feeling happy deep inside. Other things feel possible when you’re happy. Yes, there is a lot of crap out there___but inside me, around me?
I feel, and think___”My space is ok because I am ok.”
I send out good intentions for everyone daily because I believe we are all connected. I feel good that I think of the whole world every day, and I say to the connection I believe it there, “May the world heal, and may all human beings find healing answers to what hurts so deeply. May covid end____May people realize what their roles need to be with all that matters to them” Rather than think, “What can I do to affect life around me___all the problems there are, these are too many, after all, I am just me___” I thought I can send good intentions out into the world for everyone, because it may be that someone is hurting so much, so deeply he or she can’t ask for his or herself. I feel I am doing something! At it does matter! It matters to me! I should be able to believe in the thoughts I have! Even science has tested the power of prayer, of intention, and it’s recordable! The world runs on this oneness, we just need to believe it and send it forth.
They say humor is healing, that we should laugh a lot more! And perhaps be a bit vampy! This thought makes me laugh at myself, as being vampy was the last hat I would ever put on! My personal list of hats wear___ being a wife, Mom, gardener, herbalist, artist, poet, writer,____Motherhood alone has such a mile-long list of hats to wear. Like Taxi cab driver, friend, life coach, seamstress, cook, nurse____ you get the idea. And if you work too! An even longer list of who you are. Men wear the same kinds of hats as fathers. We all wear hats, and we change them out.
The point is that we are under all those hats! The point is those hats do come off and underneath them, all, who you are is the most important, and it’s not a hat at all! We all must take care of ourselves.