Good Morning Sunshine

Heaviness

I am keen to feel my heaviness. It came with his passing.

What comes to mind is how intertwined we really were.

And now part of me has left. Then, was a lighter part of me.

His laughter! And his smile___these are not here now.

Nor is the electric current that ran through me from our togetherness.

I am a battery with the juice fading out, I need to recharge.


I am keen to feel my heaviness. The loss of such love is heavy.

There is this hole in your heart you fill with sadness,

Sadness as its place as do all feelings, the sadness is not so heavy.

It’s the missing part of your self, freely given through deep trust.

Something that feels unending, now I know its betrayal?

That love may stay, but where it was so safely contained____

There is a difference with this loss, more than any other.

The intimacy of a partner____so much is shared, examined,

So much is known, to that one person! Through everything___

He was my mirror in so many ways. My guru,

Connected, a by fire that shot through us. A light that shone.

That we could face anything, anything but death.

There is a tiny part of me that feels “How can I do this?”

But I know I can. I will find my way. I will express this.

Things have been tainted just a bit like a veil I can see past.

This one thing, my loss I need words for. I am finding them.

He was there to listen. I heard all of him. So I miss him.

I know how to get to me, to find my feelings, that’s vital.

Pejj Nunes

10/26/2021

By Pejj Nunes

I live in Southern Maine. I am the owner of Anisette Studios. My website is https://www.anisettestudios.com/ Here you can view and purchase Shibui, sign up for my newsletters, blog, and read articles about Shibui Found Image Art. Patrons get great deals several times a year and special items at times. My site makes it easy to contact me. My primary art form is Shibui Found Image Art. Shibui begins with action art and stems from the imagination. It is like seeing something in the clouds or solving a puzzle. Its creative process has its own rules and requires what I call reverse engineering due to a lack of an understructure and purely out of the imagination. In addition to those who patron me, my target groups are those who use art therapy. I will soon be teaching live. Contact me if you would like to learn live. I use Zoom. I request that although my art, other images, and what I write is now published by me here on WordPress; I do ask you do not to use my artwork, poetry, or the information about Shibui Found Image Art without my permission. I am quite available to make such requests. I wish to share the following: The existentialist philosopher Simone de Beauvoir wrote a book called The Ethics of Ambiguity. In it, she lays out a guiding ethic in response to the philosophy of existentialism. It might be somewhat familiar to you already. She writes, “To will oneself free is also to will others free. This will is not an abstract formula. It points out to each person concrete action to be achieved.” Best wishes to all! Have good times and keep safe! Pejj

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