Good Morning Sunshine!

I can’t get past the heaviness.

Silence, the rain reminds me; it runs down the window.

My tears remind me, they run down my cheeks, silent.

No scream accompanying this struggle, nothing to defeat.

It just is. All the intellectualizations have no real solutions.

Fruitless efforts for what I feel inside. I must feel this? Why?

To know that I am alive? To know I can hurt; no brave face.

There is a heaviness that baffles me___it weighs me down.

I only want to be left to my own to hear myself think.

I don’t want opinions of what I should do, or where I should be at.

I am fine, then I can not sleep, or just don’t. Time passes____

I wait for the difference, the shift. I think it is here at last!

Good days, and then something triggers “it” Or it just comes.

Grief___ Sorrow, Sadness____the heaviness. Tireness____.

Does this all come from being brave when you were here?

A physical thing, a real thing. I am, as a horse, with blinders.

I identify with “The Scream!” But it’s not me to be like that.

There is little room in my head____ then I am fine again

I write, and write, and write to get it right. What is right?

I reach out, then I can’t? It’s only heaviness.

Pejj Nunes

By Pejj Nunes

I live in Southern Maine. I am the owner of Anisette Studios. My website is Here you can view and purchase Shibui, sign up for my newsletters, blog, and read articles about Shibui Found Image Art. Patrons get great deals several times a year and special items at times. My site makes it easy to contact me. My primary art form is Shibui Found Image Art. Shibui begins with action art and stems from the imagination. It is like seeing something in the clouds or solving a puzzle. Its creative process has its own rules and requires what I call reverse engineering due to a lack of an understructure and purely out of the imagination. In addition to those who patron me, my target groups are those who use art therapy. I will soon be teaching live. Contact me if you would like to learn live. I use Zoom. I request that although my art, other images, and what I write is now published by me here on WordPress; I do ask you do not to use my artwork, poetry, or the information about Shibui Found Image Art without my permission. I am quite available to make such requests. I wish to share the following: The existentialist philosopher Simone de Beauvoir wrote a book called The Ethics of Ambiguity. In it, she lays out a guiding ethic in response to the philosophy of existentialism. It might be somewhat familiar to you already. She writes, “To will oneself free is also to will others free. This will is not an abstract formula. It points out to each person concrete action to be achieved.” Best wishes to all! Have good times and keep safe! Pejj

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