To move on without you? What does that mean for me? Well, its a focus on what life now is. Instead of you supporting what ever I wish to do, I now must support me. Not that I am a lone in life, I am not, I have a lovely family. It is just that I have been married more than I have been single. I laugh at this idea. Now at 66 years of age I am single? Good God! I thought it was going to be hard at 35 to start over. And once again I have no clue about this. I think the thing is to focus on me, and change my path, and shape it more to my liking. There certainly is time for art and writing, but in the back of my mind I hear a tiny voice that says “What about love?” Love! I think. Yes! People want to be loved. I am not different. But if ever___ I want to be a bit different. I want to know how strong I can be regarding what interests me. I still want someone who can love me for me. I am not in my 20’s anymore____. I want someone interesting, kind, someone who loves life, and people, who cares about things. You in is interested in all sorts of things. (A chuckle.) Who knows. I dare say this for the sake of anyone else grieving. I don’t believe someone has to remain alone. God knows how I loved Thomas, and how deeply I miss him. But the heart always has room for love. Think of all the people you love in there! Know this for yourself. I trust that its true. A wise elderly man told me this, “Do not go looking for love, you will likely miss it!” Be all you are, and it will find you! It did that time. I can help what it is like to love again. Fleeting thought. Let me figure my way forward, and write, write, write and create art, figure revenue streams while waiting for this crazy world to settle all its trauma. Besides I have things to take care of. Me! When you are in the role of the caregiver, well you forget to fully take care of you. I gather what happens now is you living life moves you on, and its without you physically but you will always be in my head and heart. How could you not be. I am so grateful for you for it is you that thought me so much about love.